Carpe Diem
Whyteroze28
Disclaimer: I don't own Phineas, Ferb or their friends. They belong to Dan Povenmire, and Jeff Marsh.
Phineas and Ferb are teenagers, but things haven't been going that well for either of them lately. Will things get better, or are things to far gone to fix? Slash. Don't like, Don't read. And the title of this comes from a song that will be in the musical version of the 'Rollercoaster' episode.
Chapter 6
"I think you've got your answer," Vanessa spoke up from behind him. "Now, I think it's time for you to make a decision."
Ferb nodded, and looked around the rapidly dwindling crowd of people. The dance was officially over, and he noticed that a lot of people were looking his way. He suddenly understood that it really didn't matter what anyone else thought. He'd was tired of the lost feeling he'd had for the last four years.
He realized that, since he had discovered the truth about himself, he had been distancing himself from everyone, except Baljeet, and he had to wonder if that was the real reason that they'd stopped their summer projects. It was a harsh wake-up call, especially when he realized that Phineas had apparently reacted the same way.
Then he looked up, and saw Phineas stepping out from behind the stage, talking animatedly with Bobbi Fabulous. He smiled as he saw the red-head chewing on his thumbnail, a sure sign of Phineas' nervousness. Then the other boy glanced up, and Ferb saw the hesitant look on his face as he scanned the faces of the remaining people. He watched as Isabella walked over to Phineas, and said something, then pointed in his direction. Phineas looked at him, and Ferb felt the uncertainty wash away as he saw the emotion in his eyes again.
He watched Isabella give Phineas a not-so-subtle push, and felt Vanessa do the same to him. Then both boys were meeting by the side of the lake. Phineas stared up at him, and Ferb smiled slightly as the smaller boy brought his hand back up to his mouth. He reached out, and grabbed the hand, running his own thumb across the ragged nail.
"Stop that," he chided gently. Before the other boy could speak, Ferb shook his head. "No, let me get this out, please. When I said earlier that you were the most important person in my life, I meant it. Nothing has ever meant more to me than your happiness. Unfortunately, I failed to realize that by distancing myself from you, I was diminishing that. I'd see you with Isabella, or one of the other girls from your classes, and assume that because you were ignoring how much they liked you, that you were doing the same with me. That you probably knew, but were hoping I wouldn't say anything. And then, that comment you made earlier..."
"Never!" Phineas' protest was vehement. "I had no idea you felt the same way. Every time I wanted to spend time with you, there was always someone, or something else that intervened. I've wanted to tell you for so long, but I was scared that you'd hate me. And then Isabella asked me to this dance, so I talked to the band, and asked them to help me set this up."
Ferb chuckled. "So, you are still the master planner. I had wondered when things went sour this afternoon."
"Yeah, well, I wasn't expecting you to finally get pissed off enough to tell Isabella I wasn't interested." Then Phineas laughed as well. "Although when I explained why I wasn't interested, she flipped. Then she did an about face, commented that it made perfect sense, and made me promise to dance with her until my song... supposedly so I wouldn't back out."
"That explains why she was glaring at me so much. She was trying to keep me from coming over and making you nervous." Then he looked up, and realized that there wasn't anyone left at the lakeside. "She's probably waiting by the car. Think we should head home?"
They walked back to where they had parked the car, but there wasn't anyone there. Then Phineas picked up the note that had been left under the windshield wiper, and read it aloud.
Guys, Ferb's friend Vanessa offered to give me a lift home. I'll probably see you tomorrow. IGS.
As they climbed into the car, Ferb couldn't help looking over at the other boy again. He was suddenly extremely nervous. He'd been so certain that this could never happen, that he hadn't dared to wonder what might happen if it did. Then Phineas turned to look at him, and again, it was like the nervousness just faded away. He was running on pure instinct.
He leaned down, and watched as the smaller boy's eyes slid closed. As their lips touched, a jolt shot down his spine. It was as if the connection that they'd once had, which had been stuttering back to life during the past few days, had suddenly solidified. He pulled back slightly, and saw his own surprise mirrored in Phineas' eyes. And more. As children they had often had an uncanny ability to understand each other, since Ferb hadn't spoken much... But now it felt like their very souls were connected.
He wasn't sure exactly how long they stayed in that position, but he finally turned the key, and they headed for home. As they walked into the quiet house, he remembered the note from that morning. He glanced over, and saw Phineas' thumb sneaking towards his mouth again. Ferb grabbed his hand again, and pulled him over to sit on the sofa.
"Hey, you wanna watch a Space Adventure movie?" he asked, quietly. As Phineas looked at him, the nervousness Ferb had been sensing eased back a bit. The other boy nodded, and Ferb put in the DVD. They leaned back, Phineas curling into Ferb's side, and began to watch the movie.
As the movie played, Ferb's attention was more on the boy by his side than the television. I wonder what's going on inside that head? He seems to be happy now, but a few minutes ago it was like he was about to jump out of his skin... He's obviously not afraid of me, otherwise he wouldn't be sitting so close, but then what... As he tried to understand the puzzling reaction, he looked up and realized that the movie was almost over. Then he looked down at Phineas, and smiled. The red-head was almost asleep, his eyelids fluttering as he tried to keep them open.
"Man, today must have taken a lot out of you," he chuckled. "C'mon, time for bed."
Instantly, Phineas' eyes were wide open, and he'd frozen. As Ferb's brain finally made the connection, he tried not to sigh in irritation. "Phineas, relax, okay. Look at me." As the other boy turned to look at him, he smiled. "Just because we're finally together, doesn't mean we have to immediately jump into a physical relationship. I really did mean sleep." Then he leaned in for another kiss. "Although I do rather fancy the idea of us sharing a room again."
After they climbed the stairs, the two headed into Phineas' room, which was the larger of their rooms, and began getting ready for bed. As they climbed into the bed, Ferb wrapped his arms around the smaller boy, and kissed him on the cheek.
"Ferb, do you really believe we can make this work?" Phineas whispered after a moment.
"There's not a doubt in my mind. We belong together, and nothing is going to come between us again. Now get some sleep."
"'Kay." Phineas' speech was slurring, which meant he was already half asleep. "Nite, Ferb. Love ya."
Ferb smiled as he tightened his grip slightly. "I love you, too. Good night, Phineas."
There is a sequel to this, from Phineas' POV which I'm working on, but I'm not sure when I'll get to work on it. But I've got art from the first chapter of it on my Deviantart account, called 'Contemplation'.